{EXPRESS YOURSELF}

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

I will live to love You
I will live to bring You praise
I will live a child in awe of You

so glad. so jubilant to always come into your courtyards to praise you. so glad, like an infant, shrieking with joy with his laughter. i'm so in awe of you Lord. I will love to love and praise your name!

my whole life i place in your hands
god of mercy humble i bow down
in your presence at your throne

i called you answered
and you came to my rescue
and i want to be where you are

i excitedly thrust myself like a sardine into your hands, firmly i hold onto your fingers, assured by you. i bow like a servant, lowly in your presence to You of the utmost high. Yet though i whispered a soft cry of help, you came all the way charging down to save me from my distress. i am so grateful of being able to be the one apple of your eye, so precious, slightly below the angels.

And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home

waiting for the carriage of grace to pick me home.

i'm a child in awe of you.

express yourself {10:42 PM}

Monday, May 01, 2006

maybe i should blog less. haha. :X study more. pray more. work more.

hm uhm. then more time to watch da chang jin. LOL. okay wrong. very crazy after doing so much math. ymm

got a new nike dunks. obessed about it. haha. its really nice okay. my first ever shoe that i really liked. uhmm ya. okay. shall not idolize it. okay. i'm talking incoherently without any sense.

now waiting for yk to send me the here i am, before going to spend QT. mm. lemme try practising some writting skills.

letting it trickle down the path wasnt good enough. it was an arduous journey down the road that's full of peril and blemish. drifti-
AH WAIT. STUPID MSN HANGED ON ME. :/

anyway. dunno what i'm writting also. doesnt make any sense. no mood to write any of quality. must be in that melancholic mood before anything nice comes out.

thinking through alot.
self control. pure and clean life. edifying my heart/soul daily through the holy spirit. letting God's influence over powering and gushing the blemishes and stains out and away.

its 40 days of exciting growth. even though i'm not going to Encounter!, but still. i'm so burdened and ready for growth. yeh man. i'm going to look back at the end of the 40 day and gasp at the amount of growth i have. : D

flood me with your word and spirit, let my grow and mature in my salvation.

1 Peter 2:1-3
1Therefore, rid yourselves of all malice and all deceit, hypocrisy, envy, and slander of every kind. 2Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation, 3now that you have tasted that the Lord is good.

express yourself {11:20 PM}

slacked alot today. but then, very blessed.
woke up at 3am plus. had a very bad stomach ache. then i prayed la. God, heal me. the pain is unbearable. and it was okay after i placed my hands on my stomach and prayed. hah.

then i woke up again at 11.50. [though i woke up at 8am+ by zhi cai's call. but i soon fell asleep again after i hung up.] then got stomachache again. then i almost died when i realised what i had to do in the toilet. i had to be at 2 places at the smae time. to meet yk to get his shoe and thumb drive and to pass lay ling PJ's card. i was like. DIE.

then ya la, those kind of sticky and horrible situations to be in. then i was desperate. i called to God for a solution. cause my parents were angry at me for being such a last minute, asking them for a ride, cause they got somethings to do. then layling was pissed with me cause i messed something up again. and i'm late for yk's shopping trip. got "scolding" from yk also. then my dad fetched me to hougang, meet layling, before I rushing down to queen's town to meet yk. the traffic abit not smooth, then i prayed, God, help me to reach hougang fast fast. by 12.55pm. then i reached hougang very quickly, with a rather smooth traffic, passed layling the paper by 12.55pm. i prayed, God, let my flag a taxi within 5 minutes! and i got it at the 3rd minute. Then i prayed, wow. God since you're so faithful, i pray that it'd be quick, and not too expensive, between $10 and $12. then i reached there by 1.20pm+. wow. and the uncle charged me only $11! its really right smacked inbetween $10 and $12! and it was very fast la. : D wow. God is so faithful.

okay. sorry for my broken sentence structure and everything. trying to stuff too many ideas at one time. hah. its super dis-oriented.

anyway, had QT.
wow. always so great to worship god.

falling on my knees in worship
giving all i am to seek your face
lord all i am is yours

my whole life i place in your hands
god of mercy humble i bow down
in your presence at your throne

i kneel on the floor and humble myself before your throne. i dwell in your presence with joy, as i surrender my life into your hands. i make sure i put all my myself into it. i give all i have to you. i give you the heart of worship, as i surrender myself to you.

i called you answered
and you came to my rescue
and i want to be where you are

and you're the God who's always there. in times of extreme desperation, i call and cry out to you for help. and you were there to help me. just today, you showed yourself, your realness, how evident you are in my life. you are so undeniably real. God, you are so great. SO SO great.

my life be lifted high
and our world be lifted high
and our love be lifted high

my life with you lifted up. my life so filled with your goodness and blessings. i want more of your Godly infuence that i gushes all the impurities out of me. so saturated of you. living a Godly, honouring and glorifying life, that i'd be able to bring praise and honour to your name. that through my life, i'd bring people closer to you, recounciling them to you. that my love would be lifted up, my love for you, for your people, to grow. i'd be so close to you. so so intimate. wanna love and know you more. give you all my life.

bless your name o lord.

The greatest love that anyone could ever know
That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You
the greatest love. like a treasure i refuse to let go, as i hold it tightly in my hands, wanting to tell people about it, that they too, may have it. the lamp post of Salvation, of hope, of love. the treasure so great it overcomes all boundaries, even that of life and death, the vast gulf inbetween them.

With all I am I'll live to see Your kingdom come
And in my heart I pray You'd let Your will be done
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

let me do your will. let the spirit empower me, that through the spirit, i may convince the world of its greatest sin: unbelief in Jesus.

I will live to love You
I will live to bring You praise
I will live a child in awe of You
let my love for your grow as our relationship deepens. let me live life in an honouring and glorious way. help me to live life purely, humbly, as a salt and light to the world.

And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in you

like a child i'll wait. not in the orphanage, without a parent, but along a road, walking on, with your promise that i clinch so tightly to. your carriage of grace that will soon past by, carrying me in your hands. your grace will take me home.

beautiful songs and praises to God. : D

express yourself {12:46 AM}